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I try to be the best girlfriend with every guy that I’m with. I try to help them with their problems and improve their lives but the last one didn’t go so great. I don’t know if it is due to the fact that I said that I was moving away and happened to come back or because he thought I was cheating when I was not, but this was definitely a difficult break up that I hope that none of you out there have to face. We had been going out for a year and I decided that I had to move home. A long distance relationship would be out of the question but when I told him I was moving home, he just let me go. There was no conversation on how we could make it work or begging me not to leave, just an OK. This was probably do to the fact that he never voiced his opinions, something that I don’t personally like. Towards the end of our relationship I had met someone that intrigued me and we became friends. It seemed to me that my current boyfriend was quite jealous of my new friendship. I left in December and that was it with my relationship. We talked a few times online but nothing more. On Christmas, my newly acquired friend asked me if I had Skype and I said yes, so we started to talk, and talk and talk some more. Before I knew it, I was head over heels for him and thousands of miles away. As we continued to talk I just wanted to fly over to be with him. It was apparent that he felt the same way but we thought that we were crazy for falling in love over the internet. Then I started to think, well why didn’t my newly acquired ex boyfriend stay in touch through Skype? Maybe he knew that we were never going to last and that it was alright to lose my love. I had never really used Skype to speak with my friends, just to call home. Any other time that my ex and I were separated he never had very good communication skills online so it seemed to me in my head that there wasn’t going to be a long distance future with him anyway. With my friend, we just talked for hours and hours. It takes some major dedication to sit by a computer for so long and want to pursue a relationship, but we did it. I decided to go back for a few weeks to see if what I felt for him was true. The minute I saw him in the airport I knew he was the one that I wanted to be with, I felt one with myself when I was with him and physically he was basically a stranger besides a few hugs before I left. We hit it off and that was that, until my ex came around. Before I left on my journey for love, I specifically told him that I had fallen in love and I didn’t know why it happened so soon and that I would be back in town. I told him not to come looking for me and that I wasn’t going to spend anytime with him. But that wasn’t warning enough since he came looking for me anyway. Our conversation was short and cold on my part. A few minutes later, I was holding hands with my new boyfriend and he nudged me. I was so happy for the first time in so long and I didn’t realize what or more specifically who was right in front of me, my ex. I knew seeing the two of us together shattered his heart but I could not have been more direct with I don’t want to see you. Ever since then rumors went flying which obviously made me feel horrible. People who I thought were my friends weren’t even interested in knowing the truth before indulging in these rumors. I knew that going back wasn’t a smart idea in terms if the ex, but I could not let that stop me from being with someone who I truly felt that I wanted to share my life with. This break up definitely opened up my eyes to human nature and the validity of true friendships. People who I considered to be family turned their backs on me and all of the wonderful things I did for him and those supposed friends were left in the shadows of the rumors of being a liar, cheater and whore. Do I regret it? No. Would I do it again? Absolutely. It helped me become a stronger person. It weeded out people who I thought I could trust and rely on. But most of all, it led me to the one person that makes me truly happy. He’s the only person that I could remotely see a future with and that has erased my past creating an open future for us to move ahead as a couple. |